Grief

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 Where do I start?!?!?  Isn't that always the question? lol well Have been sad lately. Always hard around the holidays. especially since my mom died. It has been hard, but I take it one day at a time and I'm learning to let myself feel all the feeling because I typically make myself stop crying and block the feelings, but I know I can't keep doing that on this journey of healing. Will I ever get over her death? no and I don't intend to, but I want to learn to live with the feelings and remember the good times and remember I can grieve for however long a need too. 

I just miss her so much. On top of that I haven't seen my dad in a little over a year and that is the longest i have gone without seeing him which makes this time even harder. I know i will be okay just have to remember all the good is all.

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